I want to see...

Since I’ve began serving God..there’s a lot of things happening to me..And I don’t know how to handle everything..I began to become a worship leader but for me..still nothing happens..am I a bad worship leader?am I not good enough to touch others heart?for them to realize how Jesus loves them?

Now I’m here stuck in a situation between happiness and opportunity..

The feeling of happiness because your serving God in a pond where your the only water lily living in it with the other kinds of waterlilies..

Opportunity..to touch more even though you think that everything will be worst..many will happen if I choose this..if today the world is against me already..if I choose this the world will be more against me..and I don’t know if this what God really wants for me..

I know life is not about enjoying all the things that are in here on earth..life is about sacrifices and love…

I’m willing to sacrifice but Lord I’m confused..I know that You have plans for me..but I don’t know which of the two..I don’t want to disappoint You Lord..Help me God..

I want to become more effective..I want to touch more people and draw them near to You..I want to see young people turn their backs to their old ways and accept You Jesus as their Lord and Savior..

Lord touch me..Lord hear me..what should I do?Lord let Your will be done.. :’)

I feel wonderful today...I learn so much today...God is so great :)


Before ending this day I want to share two verses from the bible that I have keep in mind today :)


So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate.
- Matthew 19:6


This verse came from devotion..I also found out that there is no such thing as "no-fault separation"--love ends..therefore they separated..This verse certifies that once two people is bonded by God no one can ever separate them..It's their will to be separated..if they does..LOVE DOES NOT END!ITS FOREVER..FOR ETERNITY..


next verse came from our talk today from LYC(Light of the Youth Community)

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous;

love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly;

it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,

does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;

bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails...But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13

Wella explained this very briefly...Jesus is the best example of this..He demonstrate everything for us to follow..God humbled Himself for us to know His nature..This bible verse shows us how to love God and others in return..Like Jesus lets love God and one another as we love our self.

Just searched this song...God I feel so blessed!Thank You Lord!I LOVE YOU!

December 14, 2011

This day was one of the most memorable day of my life...It was the day that Heroz proved to me that even though he has no money he would try his best to give me something...It was almost 8pm at the park when he gave me his first gift to me since we dated..I'm not a materialistic person that's why I don't expect to much from him...but when he handed me that silver necklace...I was shocked!I never thought that he will give something like that to me..I expect him to give things more on his family that me...but he bought one just for me..he intentionally bought something for me..I always thought that Heroz will always give something to his family that himself or me..but that day..he changed what I thought of him..he made me realized even though he thinks too much of his family..he still cares for me..he wants to give me something even though he had no money..I was pretty shocked what he did that day..He truly loves me and wants to make me happy..I love him so much..


The silver necklace has this cross pendant which I want the most..I love him so much..he still put Christ at the center of our relationship..I wont forget this day..


I love you!

Today my life begins :)

picture taken from Ocean park...

I like the view of the ocean from here...

too bad that I can't take the picture of it...

because the rays of the sun harms the lens of my cam...